My mood is unstable, I feel impulsive in ways I haven't done in months, almost constant derealisation, awful nights full of panic and things in the walls and ceiling, my mouth and throat so dry that everytime I lie down I physically start to choke.I don't know what to do. I have no-one. I'm coming to the end of DBT. The pychiatrist is less than useless and I've been waiting for weeks for a call or appointment from my CPN. I can see myself slipping off the radar and losing it...
I am terrified that I am functioning too well on the outside that no-one is going to believe what's going on inside.
We can never function 'too well' to be lost in the system.
ReplyDeleteI know it happens to many.
But you are worth more.
I don't know what to say regarding treatment, but sharing some of this with DBT might be a start xxxx